Hold it in

It really hurts to watch someone dear to you sick, seeing them suffer when you really wanna help them or share their pain so you would ease their sufferings a little more. Worse is keeping it in you. People around them don't usually express themselves because its the problem among their family.

But we see how bad it has made them change, the sickness that change them, some may bring them closer their family though some made them a dark period to go through due to some financial problems. How I wish money could solve it, seems that money can solve so much yet it cant solve this.

I know we shouldn't be afraid of death because its a cycle in life we have to accept and adapt. But I really do not know how to take this in. It will hurt so bad. How do you choose people to die.

Its so easy to get into the dark but not easy to get back out into the light.

I still respect the people who managed to accept their dear ones going away from them. They are so strong to handle it. I know its not easy it wouldn't be.

Not so soon maybe